DEVOTION: June 2

I first felt it in the back of the sanctuary, in the very last row, during a Sunday night service. First was when I was in high school, and then again in college. Oh and then again as a young adult. At every stage, I’d find my way back to the sanctuary, to that very last row. The usher with the kind eyes would lead me to a seat and smile as he walked away. And I’d slide in alongside my confusion and sadness and angst, my embarrassment and shame and frustration. I’d sigh deeply and settle in and immediately feel God’s arms wrap around me. There was no disappointment or condemnation. Conviction, to be sure, but wrapped in an embrace, welcoming me back to love.

I’ve felt it again and again, in various situations and circumstances, through people I’ve known well and barely at all. I’ve witnessed it as acts of kindness and grace, and in unanswered prayers and closed doors. I’ve seen it in the eyes of those who’ve shown me the way, and the hearts of those I’m shepherding along.

But had I not first experienced the fruit of love from God Himself, I wouldn’t have recognized it in His people. I would have seen it and assumed it was half-hearted at best, diabolical at worst. My cynicism would run deep and my heart would hold no trust. I can’t recognize and receive the fruit of love if I don’t recognize the Spirit in which it comes from.

So maybe if you’re struggling to see love as a fruit of the Spirit in people today, it’s because you haven’t truly recognized it from God Himself. Maybe find your sanctuary, your very last row. Your usher with kind eyes to gently lead you to your seat. And settle in and close your eyes and feel His love wrap around you today. Nothing else matters…there’s time to address all the junk later. Just be loved and eat of the fruit.

“Oh, put God to the test and see how kind he is! See for yourself the way his mercies shower down on all who trust in him.” (Psalm 34:8, The Living Bible)

-Monica